Friday, January 15, 2010

I miss my Hezekiah, we miss Hezekiah. The house is no longer the same with him not being here. There are so many reminders of him and each one brings fresh tears. My arms ache for my son, even my breasts cry out his name. Oh Dear God I shall not question your ways or when I start to I will fight it with all that is within me. I know your ways are best and you know better than I. But this ache is one I have never felt before and it is so very deep. I don't know how it will ever stop.
I miss rubbing my finger across his sweet little lips and cheeks, kissing his sweet chubby cheeks, and holding his precious little self in my arms. I cannot just put away my Mothering instincts, I so desire him. Oh my sweet Hezekiah, Mommy loves you! Your Daddy, H, E, S, N, E, & R love you so much as well.

I still thank the Lord for giving Hezekiah to us, we were so blessed to have such a wonderful little boy. He may have had an outward birth defect but it was overlooked by us. Hezekiah was a blessing and someday I will see it all clearly. Someday I will be with my son again, that brings comfort!


  1. I just keep remembering that Hezekiah is at perfect peace in the arms of Jesus and you know Grandma is spoiling him already. I can't imagine what you guys are going through I just pray that you will be able to find the peace that Hezekiah already has. Love you all.


  2. sunday my support group is having a service of remembrance for all the babies we have lost...i'll be thinking of you! i'll pray for you, i don't think there is a greater ache for a mother than that for the loss of her child!

  3. Michele,
    I'm so sorry for this incredibly deep loss. I will uplift you in prayer. I'm so thankful that God hears our groans because I don't have the words. Thank you so much for sharing Hezekiah's life and journey with us. He has touched so many people.

  4. Praying for your family as you adjust to life without your sweet little one. Praying God can fill your empty arms with His peace.
    God bless,

  5. hi Michele. Thinking of you all day..right now just re reading all of the blog and what has happened. Love you..and aching for you and the loss of hezekiah/....always praying too. Your friend...Autumn &fam.

  6. In making your journal and therefore your heart available to others, you bring news of the Way of comfort to those who will also walk your hard path but who might not yet kow this Comforter.

    May you be blessed and may your dreams tonight be of Him and of the joy that His live brings to us all!

    2 Cor. 1: 3Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, 4who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God. 5For just as the sufferings of Christ flow over into our lives, so also through Christ our comfort overflows. 6If we are distressed, it is for your comfort and salvation; if we are comforted, it is for your comfort, which produces in you patient endurance of the same sufferings we suffer. 7And our hope for you is firm, because we know that just as you share in our sufferings, so also you share in our comfort.

  7. I saw your blog link on Twitter, and I came over to find out how to pray. I am so very sorry for your loss. Our prayers are with you.

  8. Hi Michele,
    I wanted to write something sooner but did not know what to say - still do not know what to say. I think of you so much and am praying for you.

  9. I found your blog through Jacque Dixon's link on FB. I am so sorry for the loss of your baby. My husband and I lost our 5 year old to cancer 14 months ago. We sincerely will pray for you and your family. My heart does go out to you all.
    Julie K

  10. Michele,
    I am so, so sorry for the loss of Hezekiah! I continue to pray for you, Ken and the children. I wish there were something I could do to ease the pain you are feeling! I know there is nothing more painful than the loss of a child! Please know that I am here for you anytime day or night and you all are always on my mind. If you ever need to talk, cry or just vent...please feel free to call. I'll understand....and I'll listen! I love you and God bless you all!