Saturday, September 29, 2012

Hezekiah's red wagon

 We went to Hezekiah's resting place two weeks ago on a beautiful day.  We like when the weather is nice and we can hang out there for awhile.  We ended up staying for almost two hours.  The children sat and talked with us but then they ended up playing some games.  Ken and I sat and watched hand in hand as 7 of our 8 children played together.  Sometimes we talk but more than often we sit silent just knowing the ache in each others heart.

 While I was at SAMS I spotted this wagon and I instantly knew if Hezekiah were here I would buy it for him.  It is absolutely adorable.  As I stood there looking at it my eyes filled with tears.  My precious Hannah came over and hugged me and told me to buy it.  Without me saying she knew where my heart was.  I am so thankful for her and the blessing she is to me in so many ways.  I did buy it and everyone was thrilled with the purchase.  We all wrote a message to Hezekiah on the wagon and we took it over to his resting place.  I took the picture above as Job was playing with the wagon wheel and Ken was telling Job all about his big brother Hezekiah.

  I wish I could say it gets easier as the days and months go on but it does not.  The truth is you just learn how to deal with it a bit better.  The ache and longing never end and I think that just says how much we love our precious Hezekiah!!