I thought yesterday was a bad day, today is even worse. I wish it would all end! I can't smile, laugh, or even function. I have every emotion going on at one time that I don't know how I am to feel or act. I don't understand WHY. Everything I do/did seems to be in vain at this point. I just want my Hezekiah to live and if he can't to be honest I don't know if I can either.